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33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
Oh, how I try to control my life!–even as we take a huge leap of faith right now and I “know” I’m NOT in control. I still find myself grasping for it…
Over the last few weeks, we received news which basically could have meant our girls couldn’t live with us for a while after we actually move to Honduras. You see, there’s to be a bit of a “dating” phase between us and IHNFA (their social services branch) to make sure we are a good home for the girls. Honestly, I have been very happy that IHNFA makes somewhat of an attempt to look after the kids in their care.
But talk about something that bothered me–the thought of our girls not living with us has been eating me up. I’m not quite sure how to explain that any better.
Well, just in the last few days we got informal “approval” that our house would be approved for our girls to live with us. Then after some time of “dating,” our adoption process will begin. This is great news to hear!
That said, there are TONS of things that could pop up that would halt or stop the entire adoption process. Does that scare us and make us feel completely helpless? Heck yeah!
There has been some violence occurring in Honduras lately that really makes me concerned for our safety. I keep thinking, how I can protect and keep our family safe? While there are things we will certainly do to protect ourselves, at the end of the day our fate is in God’s hands, whether we are in Honduras or in the US. I am asking God to help me rest in His peace in this area, and I ask you to pray for us as well.
I’m not quite sure what it is about finding a home in Honduras, but it’s something I would love to have sorted out. Here in the States we have bought rentals, homes, and rented places. Generally it starts with perusing property online, contacting a realtor to look at the property, and then making the choice to buy/rent a place.
In Honduras, basically our team has to drive around looking for “rent or for sale” signs and call each owner to see what the story is, and of course the whole time, not trying to let the cat out of the bag that the people wanting to rent are from the US. (prices change a bit for us Gringos 😉 )
There are so many areas where we feel completely out of control, but these are just a few. It really just reminds us that we have to continue to pray for less of us and more of Him in our lives. Just because we made a decision to step out on faith doesn’t mean we won’t struggle with the same flesh issues we have here. We expected that, but it’s always different to expect something rather than having it actually happen.
Seeing the dominos
It always amazes me as we look back and see what God has orchestrated. I can’t ever see it when we are in the middle of the storm or massive changes. However, as we clear that and we reflect, it’s apparent what God was doing.
We know we are going to Honduras, but we don’t know what God has over the horizon. We will trust Him and continue to give Him full control – despite our flesh.
As we read in God’s Word, we are continually reminded to Give God Control over our lives. But I have to wonder, what would all of our lives look like if we gave Him complete control….
Got anything you are trying to hold onto that you need to lay at His feet?
34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matthew 6:34)